fight the good fight.

its been awhile...

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 04:02:36 GMT

"Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass.
And when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim.
The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon.
We can only lie to ourselves for so long.
We are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn't change the truth.
Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world.
Head on, guns blazing.
De Nile. It's not just a river in Egypt, it's a freakin' ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?"
Grey's Anatomy

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 19:12:45 GMT

so 18 years and
i finally have a valentine :)
oh hes starting to grow on me, a lot.
nothing beats not knowing whats going to happen next.

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 06:55:41 GMT

dear life/boys,
please let me know when im good enough just the way i am.
love,
me

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 05:50:30 GMT

so today i told my spanish teacher that i'm not going to continue my spanish career after his class.
(even though im getting an 89%)
he told me i need to because i live in tucson.
and i thought
OH SHIT BITCH i dont live in tucson i just go to school here.

two weekends and counting till thanksgiving :)
i miss good ol peoria.

and remember the good ol days when we used to make posts for peoples birthday.
well im one day late but:

happy birthday melanie. dont know what i would do without you. you are my most favorite thing.. ever!

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 18:45:33 GMT

zach and i made a bet:
no myspace or facebook for one week.

how lame that this is going to be hard.

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 04:54:56 GMT

im overwhelmed.
school is hard... really hard.
i dont know if i can do it.
i dont want to fail.. i try really hard.
i miss my mom and dad. and brother. and mel too.
i dont get to see everyone as much as i wanted to.
there is someone at home who probably doesnt miss me,
but i miss him a lot.
i miss my boys (brett, larry, burkland, matt, jon michael ect..)
i suck at english and spanish and writing papers.
no cute boys out here yet.

cure for all this:
jacks mannequin.
the end.

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 20:31:33 GMT

this is the stuff im going to miss..

plus a ton more but that is what i had randomly had in my photo bucket album.

Wed, 03 May 2006 03:46:53 GMT

so ive made it... 18 years.
no criminal record
no broken bones
never been in love
broken heart = story of my life.
i dont know what my natural hair color is... and i havent known for years.
i loovvee music.
the only person i really ever trusted is mel +family. always has been... always will be.
where does the time go.
three months and ill be starting a new life.
im growing up too fast.
time needs to slowww.
i want to go sky diving. i just remembered
this is just rambling.
18 years old... weird.

Fri, 28 Apr 2006 04:47:51 GMT

i seriously set myself up for heart break.
im an idiot.

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 03:04:43 GMT

i REALLY don't want to go back to school tomorrow.
and i REALLY don't want it to be my last semester.
hmmm.

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 03:35:43 GMT

i havent had any bread (of any kind) and any sugar in 2006.
the only thing that keeps me going is sugar free jello.
im gonna be skinny in noo time!!

new out loooookkkkkk

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 08:18:51 GMT

so i guess ill cut my losses
cause i lost a lot
i guess ill quit complaining
and ill start walking it off
because there is no point in living
in a past with that unhappiness

stuff is going to change....
dont be mad if i dont call anymore.
PEACE!

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 07:19:41 GMT

boys like you are overrated,
so save your breathe.

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 07:14:28 GMT

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY MELSTER.
I WISH I COULD BE THERE WITH YOU :)
HAVE FUN, BE SAFE, AND DON'T DO ANYTHING I WOULDNT.
I LOOOOVVVEEEE YYYYOOOUUUU.

LOOK WHAT I GOT !

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 21:26:34 GMT

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 23:43:56 GMT

i hate my life.
my car has a big dent in it because these kids got into a fight at school and they slammed into my car.
not to mention there was blood ALLL over it.
so im pissed and i was going to call sarah to see who fought because i will fight them.
and my cell phone and ipod were stolen from my purse.
i want to shoot myself.

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 19:33:02 GMT

MORE TO COME.
but those are the only two i bought.

GOOOOOOOD NEWS:

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 02:50:27 GMT

so i get home from school to find out some good news.
my mom says " i just got a call from the glendale police" annddd...
they have found the car that the purse snatched got into!!
and it wasnt stolen so they should be able to determine who drives it ect..
but i guess the driver of the car doesnt match the description of the guy who stole my purse.
and the police officer said that if the driver does not cooperate he is going to take his car!!!!
so im really hoping they will have them nailed by the end of this week.
im 110% ready to go to court and prosecute these guys.
:)

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 01:01:11 GMT

i guess i have to do this tooo

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 00:50:11 GMT

1) Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2) I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3) I'll pick a flavor/color of jello to wrestle with you in. (Maybe.)
4) I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5) I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6) I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7) I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8) If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written!

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 21:25:09 GMT

good news:
i have a bruise on my arm from where he ripped my purse off and cuts of my knee and hand from jumping the fence so if we do catch them we can charge them for assault on top of everything else.
i guess this is where hanging out with all guys pays off because when im out i dont have to be scared of anything happening.
annnnd MEL COMES HOME TODAY.
annnnnnnd i have the next four days off work!!!!!!!
annnd i went somewhere by myself today!!!!

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 18:27:53 GMT

update:
the guys charged 55 dollars in gas on my card about 15 minutes after they got my purse.
we found this out when my mom tried to cancel it as i was talking to the police.
so the cop went to the gas station they used it at and watched the video.
i was right, they were driving a mercedes.
they also tried to charge 79.99 to my card at a car wash but it was declinded.
and the video system doesnt work there.
we changed the locks on our doors last night.
and my car was towed to the ford dealership to get new keys made. (which cost 330 dollars)
i probably wont get a new cell phone till monday because we are on a family plan and mel is in san diego this weekend.
i wish she was home to sleep with me because she would hear something if someone tried to break in.
not to mention the purse that was snatched, was hers.
atleast it wasnt the dooney.
i cant believe this is happening.
im scared to go anywhere by myself... well im scared to go anywhere at all.
i have this horrible feeling that this nightmare isnt over.
they know where i live.

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 00:16:00 GMT

i was robbed today.
i was standing in the parking lot by mimi's cafe and toys r us with my mom aunt and this guy ran up and ripped my purse off my arm.
i almost caught him, i had to jump at four foot fence.
but there was a car waiting for him on bell.
my cell phone and wallet debit card and car keys (that i dont have a duplicate too) and house keys
they already used my debit card.
im scared to be in my house because they know where i live and they have my car/ house key.
if you need me call my house.
6239790023
i hate life.

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 04:38:43 GMT

i went to girls state this past week at u of a.
it is 300 girls who are leaders, have good grades are invovled in your school.
you learn about the government and stuff.
its kinda a big deal.
for example bill clinton attended boys state, but anyways....

we stayed in the coronado dorms at u of a. that is my bed. it was really high.

my closet. i brought way too much stuff.

we had to decorate the halls. we were the yucca surfers. im totally awesome at crafts... NOT.

our hall.

i met leesa on the first day. instant friends. we had so much fun together. and we were pretty much always together. THROW IT UP.

carrie was soo cute. and we brought the same shirt so we wore it on the same night.

amber was rad. during meet the canidate night i started free styling and she was my b boxer.

brenna and i pretty much hung out the whole time. this was meet the canidate night and brenna didnt run for anything so she was just my body guard. we were rapping in this picture too.

we really missed boys. so since we were the surfers we drew a picture of mer-man. his name was skyler. and one day when we were walking on campus i guy passed us that looked exactly like him.

lexie and brenna at dinner

christina, beana, misty, and christina.

me and my junior counselor rachael. she was the best ever.

free style crew.

me and judy fan. she was hilarious. she did the prefect imitation of those spelling bee people on espn.

my roommate adriane.

SKYLER.

christian, elsa, and brenna at breakfast on saturday.

my city.

I told you the bed was tall.

judy fan's attitude face. haha

me and beana staying up way too late on friday night.

misty and i. i loved misty to death. she lives in a small town and they dont have stop lights. i might go down to visit her on 4th of july because she said its a big deal in her town. oh and she is the who curled my hair.

lyndsay was the nicest girls i have ever met. seriously i wish i was like her.

LEESA and I.

hotties.

brenna and i like taking pictures. ha

natalie lyndsay and ashlee.

brenna and i... again.

this girl was a back up dancer for aaron carter. she went on tour for two months. i was amazed so i had to take a picture with her.
i never thought my life could change so much in a week.

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 15:20:19 GMT

welp see ya later.